Thursday, December 27, 2012

E-day

not mine, of course. :p

22nd December 2012 

this is what girlfriends are for.. :)


us. the bridesmaid? gadis-gadis hantaran :P

it was a beautiful day.
congrats dear. you're gorgeous.

23rd December 2012.

and happy birthday.
i love you.
always.

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

sunat.

smlm, majlis khatan beramai2 kt hosp; 48 org.
sbb kenal staff sejak attchment tahun2 lps, minggu lps ckp kt abg H nk join. abg H kate ok, jd smlm dtg join sekali. tp pagi2 nmpk pengarah hosp da cuak. tanya abg H tk pe je ke masuk je ni tk melalui pengarah. abg H kata ok tk pe, then ok la. hehe. rase kekok. sbb 1.tk kenal ramai staff. 2.sorg2 je 'outsider'. 3.da lama tk pegang instrument.

mula kes pertama perhatikn dulu tuk mudim plng berpengalaman; encik J buat procedure. lebih complicated drpd procedure yg dr yg mesir buat. mungkin sebb perbezaan umur & peralatan kt msia lebih banyak. dan technique pun lebih sterile. encik J buat dlm 11min pun abg H kata tu laju. average dlm 15-20min utk setiap kes. kt mesir kurg drpd 5min da siap.

ade 2 technique.
a. ? tk sure nama technique. dr mesir guna technique yg sama tp cuma guna special instrument mcm gunting; i dont know whts the name. it's a bone forceps. dan kt sini guna diatermy/cautery supaya kurg pendarahan. kelebihan: lebih cepat. clamp & potong sekali terus.
b. dorsal slit. much complicated dan kena lebih berhati2. ni technique lama. kena bukak dan potong diameter kelililing.
huh layman. in medical term, boleh la google sendiri.

mula2 kaku tk tahu nk start kt mana. dr W tegur dulu, mntk tlng syringe out LA. lama tk pegang instrument, syringe out pun shaking. oh, damn it. jd kena bahan. nk ikut abg H, tp abg H da dgn dr W, dan kebetulan encik A kosong, maka jd pembantu encik A.

encik A baik. technique encik A pun kemas. encik A ajar step by step. mula2 assist, da kes yg ke 3, encik A suruh buat. oh my!. mula2 pegang needle holder pun da shaking apetah lagi masa buat procedure. encik A ckp kena letak tgn kt atas pt utk atasi hilangkn menggeletar. jd tk la obvious sgt.
seronok jahit byk dan dpt aplikasikn surgical knot. 1st time! selalu cuma practice kt benang masa mngantuk wktu lecture. td byk ambil precaution superficial vein pun kena ligate, jd byk la dpt buat surgical knot. gembira. tk lama kemudian El dtg. jd kami bertiga kt satu station. ganti2 dgn El jd pembantu pembantu. da akhir2 tu encik A beri kepercayaan pada kami untuk handle sendri dgn pemerhatian.

mcm2 ragam. ade umur dr 6-12 tahun. muka confident, muka cuak, yg asyik angkat muka je nk tgk, yg stress satu badan. ckp kt pt, relax je, adik kalau sakit/takut bace bismillah dan selawat byk2 tau. tahu selawat tak? -err da lupa. aigo. ade sorg adik umur 6 tahun tu plng comel. tk henti menangis sambil bace 3qul and alfatihah kuat. sbb pelat2 lg kn, pastu takut2. alahai comel sgt. and El bgs byk bg nasihat kt pt. ni da nanti jgn lupa solat, hbs procedure suruh pt ckp terima kasih kt encik A. nmpk sbg medical profession sgt byk peluang utk berdakwah and mengingatkan. mcm kt adik td, boleh nk ajarkn selawat. nk tk nk dan mampu kuat atau tidak je kn.

dpt dlm 7-10 kes. yeay.

pengalaman baru. seronok.
siapa nk sunat? saya da reti. lol.

Sunday, December 9, 2012

piemass.

i'm sensitive. i'm emotional. i'm easily distracted with simple things i shouldn't care of.
i hate the fact that i am hardly able to control my emotion.
and may physically affected by muscle twitches; on masseter or thenar.
all will end up with myself crying.
i cried at my bestfriends wedding yesterday. silly.

now something is bothering me. and i can't stop to think about it.
emotionally unstable; and tears just about to burst.

urghhh..

dear thing, pls get out of my mind..
i wish i have switch button to turn off the thought.

i dont like to feel left out.
thats why i love when im busy. so im not distracted with all those simple things
which will affected me a lot, every time i think of it.
and will keep bugging in my head as long as i dont hv anything else to think.
that thing, shouldn't be an issue.
stress.!


dear heart, pls dont break.

i need distraction.
i miss my hectic life. 

Friday, December 7, 2012

why a doctor? II

I want to be a doctor with all my heart
I wanted to become a doctor so I could serve others
and because of I've lost everything
but I've also gained everything..
 -Dr. Hunter "Patch" Adams. 


highly recommended. patch adams 1998.

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

another step closer

random Q on interview with SPA/KKM.
  • nama2 menteri kabinet, menteri kesihatan, pengarah kesihatan, etc. title penting. perlu tahu nama penuh beserta pangkat; YAB, YB, dato', dato seri.
  • common disease in Malaysia/Egypt.
  • KKM. organisasi, moto.
  • TB. DOTS.
  • dengue fever. signs & symptoms. treatment
  • klinik 1Malaysia
  • DM. normal range of blood glucose level. (malaysia guna mmol.)
  • kempen kesihatan oleh kerajaan malaysia
  • pusat penyelidikan kesihatan
  • disease yg kena notify
  • what is endemic, epidemic, pandemic? example.
  • peranan WHO 
dan selebihnya, borak2 kosong tanya latar belakang, kalau kena sabah sarawak nk tk? ha ha. dan penuh nasihat drpd penemuga utk kerja nanti.
sekejap. dalam 20min sekali 5 org masuk. 

kata sahabat handai, masa dr tarikh temuduga sampai induksi tambah tolak dalam 8minggu.
jd kalau interview 28.11. kebarangkalian mungkin dipanggil induksi 22.1. oh.
ade tambah tolak 7 minggu lg. tambah da 9 minggu tinggalkn medicine. kire la brp byk yg masih igt.

ye, sy penganggur berjaya.

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

my bestfriend's wedding.

congrts ain. my ex-neighbor. 8 tahun kawan dr sek rendah ke sek menengah sama. tk sangka ain kawen dulu.


and you, my dear classmate for 6y aka my ground glass appearance cousin aka studygroup-mate in last 3years aka my er-buddy slash partner in crime at hosp. all the memories 6y in alex..
yg menjadi pendorong, pemberi semangat, mengingatkn ketika lupa, mengajak ke arah kebaikan, pemberi nasihat, pendengar dan peneman yg setia, dan kawan waktu susah & senang.
thank you. i love you.


sebak. sayu. congrats both of you. semoga bahagia sampai syurga.
n congrats for migha & zana too!.
nahh.. this is for you guys. things were changed when ppl married isn't?