Friday, August 31, 2012


copy paste dr meor. hehe

1. Tell us who the last person that you took a shower with. my cousin, 16 years ago
2. Tell us about your favourite tee-shirt. anything comfortable
3. Has anyone ever hit on you even though they knew you were taken? im single &
4. Do you plan what to wear the next day? blue jeans & grey blouse. and white coat.
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now? Why? lazy. friday mode activated
6. What’s the closest thing to you that’s black? my keyboard
7. Tell me about an interesting dream you remember having. aa malu. haha
8. Did you or might you meet anybody new today? yes. n sometimes they made my day
9. If you could be doing anything right now (or perhaps after you finish this ridiculous meme) what would it be? take a bath
10. Can you think of a meme question that’s never been asked? ur IC number
11. What comes to mind when I say China? fake products
12. Are you overly emotional? always. *sigh
13. If you could listen to just one rock album (CD, vinyl or mp3) which one would you pick? LP
14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it? bite! ngap.
15. Do you eat to live or live to eat? eat to live. dont hv feeling to really enjoy the food & proper cook lately.
16. Do you like yourself? yes! i love myself
17. Would you go out to eat with Charlie Sheen? who's that?
18. What was the last song that you listened to? sudirman - warisan. 55th malaysian independant day, n lots of patriotic songs on air. im lovin it.
19. Are (or were) your parents strict? yes they're
20. Have you ever wondered what attending a wild orgy (if only to watch or…) would be like? wht is that?
21. I say cottage cheese. You say: blueberry cheese cake
22. Have you ever met a celebrity? nope
23. What was the last movie that you watched at home? hugo, last week. and its bored.
24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in? my watch?
25. What countries have you visited? saudi, turkey, indonesia
26. Have you ever made a phone call while you were drunk that you’ve regretted? If yes, do tell. i dont drink.
27. Where were you going the last time that you were on a train? itay el-barud. sherif's place for iftar last month
28. Bacon or sausage? neither
29. How long have you had a cell-phone? 7 years
30. What other memes do you do regularly? I don’t do memes that often.
31. Who is the craziest meme host? i dont know.
32. Who invented chopsticks? the Chinese.
33. Who are you going to be with tonight? my friends
34. Are you too forgiving? maybe. but in certain condition i still try my best to forgive & forget
35. When was the last time that you were in love? everytime. i love Allah, my prophet, parents, family & my dear friends.
36. Tell us about your best friend. we not alwys see each other, but we know we have each other's back.
37. What was the stupidest thing you learned in high school? i dont think of any. but if u ask in university, i hv a very long list.
38. What was the last thing that you cried about? yesterday. somebody crossed my line. yes. im that emo.
39. What was the last question you asked? do you want to go to carefour?
40. Favourite thing to do this time of the year? anything that kept myself busy & happy.
41. If you had to get a (or another) tattoo, what would it be? I will never do a tattoo.
42. How would your best friend describe you? bubbly & friendly
43. Have you ever seen all three Twilight films? not even 1
44. Ever walked into a glass door? haha. bang! embarrassed moment.
45. Favourite colour on that person that you are attracted to? anything that look good in my eyes
46. Have you ever slapped someone? joke slap. is't count?
47. What hair style (for you) would you like to see return? long, straight & smooth with less hair fall.
48. What was the last CD you bought? christina alguilera, 4 years ago.
49. Do looks matter to you? yes. 1st impression is important.
50. Could you ever forgive a liar? once u lose the trust its hard to gain it back.
51. What’s the hardest bill to pay every month? house rent. i hate to deal with my simsar.
52. Do you like your life right now? yes, i enjoy it.
53. Do you sleep with the TV on? sometimes
54. Can you handle the truth? it's better knowing the ugly truth than find it out later.
55. Do you have good vision? yes. :D my short sighed has been corrected.
56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?  i hate/dislike uncivilized/uneducated local Egyptian. never feel safe living in here.
57. How often do you talk on the phone? rare. only 2-3 times per week.
58. What celeb would you like to come home to? prophet saw. he is a celeb isn't? i want to meet him.
59. What are you wearing? pajama. haha busuk.
60. What is your favourite wild animal? cub
61. What is your favourite genre of movie? romantic comedy?
62. Can you waltz? no
63. Do you have a job? a servant, daughter, sister, friend, doctor-to-be.
64. What was the most recent thing you stole? no.
65. Have you ever crawled through a window? no.

Thursday, August 23, 2012

bleeding score

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

untitled 5

  1. woke up at 10 with regret.  im a morning person.
  2. im soo into rendang this year. rendang = raya = happiness.
  3. last raya at perantauan. having good time with batchmates, and attend a lot of open houses. last moment together. sobs. lps semua org akan bawa haluan masing2 ntah bile dpt bertemu lagi. kn?.
  4. thing i miss most during eid: gathering & suasana raya with family. makanan, duit raya etc da tk kisah sgt da. oh i miss home.
  5. i know my family miss me too. *sigh.
  6. i miss my girlfriends here in alex. feeling something missing somewhere not having them around though we're not spend much time together. 
  7. jgn membazir. rase geram bile org ambil makanan byk2 tk hbs n buang. and geram tgk tinggal sesuap tk nk hbskn sbb da kenyang?. oh.
  8. i did enjoy the pre-internship thing. and its not just about attendance.
  9. got invitation from Egyptian colleague for her master degree thesis discussion. terharu. haha.
  10. i've made long list things to do for this summer holiday. looking forward to it.
  11. mind the boundaries. everyone has their own space. do not cross the line. 
  12. dont show me ur village. pls. pfftt.
  13. currently, staying at friend's. better not to stay at home alone though im much prefer that. and actually it feel good having somebody around.
  14. will spend most of time at hosp. got invited to join shifts with them. i want to do suture. to assist delivery. to clerk pt on my own. to improve my clinical skill. and attach & spend my time with dearest Egyptian colleague. 
  15. cuak for result! better not to think about it.
  16. ppl start to discuss placement for housemanship. i dont know. 
  17. let's think tomorrow's problem tomorrow.
  18. some of my dear friends getting married in a month(s). sad? maybe. i dont know. im just thinking we can't spend time like when they're single anymore, and things are different when they're married.
  19. less than 2months to stay in egypt. 
  20. mixed feeling
  21. so random and flight of idea.
  22. selamat hari raya maaf zahir & batin.

Friday, August 17, 2012

love rain

datang dan pergi silih berganti
pilu hati.
tk suka bila tiba masa utk berpisah
kenapa perlu ade perpisahan
mengharapkn kekal selamanya pd setiap pertemuan
lebih lagi yg meninggalkn bekas di hati
sungguh terasa sunyi
bergenang air mata terbayang bekas suasana
terasa kosong bila tiada
tinggal memori
terus bersemadi menjadi kenangan
menggamit rindu pada yang pergi

ape pun hidup perlu diteruskn

selamat jalan. semoga dpermudahkn semuanya

dan rindu pada kalian tentunya pasti..

kisah lain berakhir sudah.
tidak lagi mengharap.
pergilah. dan biarkn berlalu pergi.....

Monday, August 13, 2012

2nd week: cardiology

alhmdulillah. hbs 2nd round. cardiology & vascular medicine. best! gain & learn a lot.

cardio sgt detail. 1st day round pt, discuss +-1hour for every case. menarik sbb dr bg kami; budak malaysia yg selalu cuma jd pemerhati diam tk bersuara involve speak up join the discussion, dr terangkn in fully english & tanya2 soalan. jarang. sbb selalu dr discuss in arabic & kalau tanya br dr ckp in english. language barrier memang masalah. dr prefer explain & discuss better with their own mother tongue.

paling suka bila tgk drs buat group discussion. seat together and sharing knowledge. senior resident lead ajar jr2. so much fun and nmpk senior resident sentiasa nk tunjuk ajar. masa2 lapang tk check pt, they will seat together & discuss case or anything about cardiology. n discuss buku cardio page by page.
dr selalu ajak join sekali. tp sebab tk paham. paham medical term je, bile explanation dah lost. tp kalau dr rajin ade je lps tu derg terangkn blk in english.

n so far kalau tgk drugs utk cardiac cases semua lebih kurg. heparin, aspirin, clopidogrel, ator, concord, ACEI, aldosterone, anti oxidant, antibiotic, etc. da boleh hafal setiap kali doctor tulis prescription. but of course different according to pt condition. each time dr nk bg prescription, derg discuss based on clinical evidence study & recommendation; class I, IIab, III: ABC. gila kn. hebat.

belajar echo sket2, tgk byk case kt outpt. see detail examination. n for the 1st time, i clerk case by own & present to dr. byk defect tp ok la kn da lps 1st time cuba lg lain kali. n see detail examination & investigation to reach dx and management of each.

thank you Drs.
dr gendi, dr amr, dr mustafa, dr muhamad, dr ahmad, dr ala', dr basma, dr yehia, dr shereen.
and in the very last day, they remember my name. hihi. :))

da hbs cardio tambah 1 wishlist: steth littmann cardio.

Saturday, August 11, 2012

ramadhan 22nd

our Egyptian friend; sherif invite us to go his house for iftar. dan kami dengan sangat berbesar hati memenuhi jemputan beliau. pukul 4 gerak dari mahattah misr ke itay el-barud; kawasan luar bandar lebih kurg 1.45-2jam dari alex. 1st time naik tram ayam? ok je pun sbnrnya. cuma open air, bila selisih dgn keretapi sblh memang menderu angin. n tgk pemandangan kaw pertanian sepanjang perjalanan, sgt cool~

sampai dlm pkl 6++.mereka da tunggu; sherif & his friend muhammad. they both now are MO btw. siap sewa tramco khas utk kami ke rumah beliau (dlm 15min drpd mahattah) and keluarga sgt mengalu2kn kami. jumpa mak sherif, mama sgt baik & shaima'; adik sherif. 

terkejut makanan sgt byk! da siap da semua tinggal tk hidang je lagi. seriously. makan utk 20+ org makan. nasi. spagetti, firakh mayhwi, hamam mahsyi, bat6o, ru'ak, koftah, tomato salad, potato. kitorg tlng kemas meja & hidang makanan. tk cukup meja. penuh sgt. as if like sorg kena makan semua dish 1 plate each yg memang sgt byk. tp failed. muhammad kate tk boleh nk jd isteri lg hidang meja pun tk reti. lol. die yg susun blk.
less than quarter of the foods.
tambah dgn juice mango, tamr, tamarhind & lisan asfour. and air masak sejuk ade ais siap satu cooler besar tu. solat maghrib, makan mana mampu; kena paksa mkn lg. haha.  kitorg da mkn byk sgt pun mcm tk luak. kemas sket2. then pergi solat terawih sama2 kt masjid. semua org. satu family sekali. tinggal dapur tk kemas tkpe pergi masjid jgk. bagus kn?. blk masjid duduk borak2 makan2 lagi sampai pkl 10 dihidangkan dgn mango, fiq & 3inab banati, tea & bicarbonate drink.

erfan. sherif. nazri. mohammad shehata. qiqi. dayah. eifa.
mkcik insist overnight kt situ. terharu sgt. macam family. buka puasa sama2, pergi masjid terawih sama2. sbb mkcik kata da beli da kunafa & atayif, tp tk sempat nk buat. stay la lama lg. layanan yg kami dpt pun da sgt baik & makanan semua da lebih drpd cukup. sgt terharu tau. and before blk, siap bungkuskn tapau bawak blk makanan utk sahur. bile nk blk, makcik hantar kami keluar sampai hilang dr pandangan. hiba. kalau prepare awl2 boleh kot nk stay. tp esok pun nk kerja pg. apakn daya. terasa nilai family. singgah sekejap je pun, rase sgt best.

gerak ke mahattah, train pkl 11+. and muhammad temankn blk alex. lps tu br die blk kafr dawa'. jd musyrif/guardian kitorg. terasa mcm budak2 sbb muhammad memang jaga. train ke alex penuh. terpaksa berdiri sepanjang perjalanan memang tkde tempat. tp rase selamat je. nasib baik mlm train lg laju. dlm sejam lebih perjalanan, sampai alex pkl 12++. pkl 1 sampai rumah. penat. and seronok.
thank you very much sherif & family. and muhammad shehata. it will be a good memory. :')

Tuesday, August 7, 2012


kelmarin call rumah. emo rindu sgt nangis teruk dgn family. haihhh. r u 12 or what?? nasib baik tk ckp dgn semua org. kalau ade mak sekali mesti mak lg risau. smlm terus demam. cmpur dgn penat ER lagi. hr ni makin teruk. 

i want my family. :'(

Monday, August 6, 2012

1st week: ER

  1. work hour: 9am-5pm. minimum 5days.
  2. fav questions in 1st few days of work: dr can we go home now? and dr's fav answer: No.
  3. me: dr where do you send ABG? here(istikbal) or clinical pathology?
    dr (HO): clinical pathology
    me: seriously.??!
    dr (HO): yeah. aircond2 :P
    me: it's too far away. and it's hot. and everyone are fasting. n how many times you hv to go there every shift?
    dr (HO): for the sake of pt, i dont mind.
    me: wow. really
  4. 27y female. post ictal. hematemasis.
    my friends and i insert NGT & folley's catheter & did gastric wash on her.
    2hours later.... she die.
  5. dr S: hanin how are you? how's everything?
    me: alhmdulillah fine dr S, i just finished exam last week
    dr S: what exam? physiology? anatomy?
    me: nooo. final 6th year exam. girahah & ba6nah.
    dr S: are you 6th year??
    i attached to dr S almost a year and mayb she think im still in preclinical year. oh.
  6. come sharp at 9am today, and 1st pt i saw hg stroke pt on ETT and sudden cardiac arrest. ICU resident did CPR and 1st ECG already flat. pt die. cant help myself when resident delivered the news to relative and see how they digest it. :/
  7. hanin do ABG on this pt. hanin take blood pressure. hanin this pt has blabla... 
    i really love when the resident called me by name, discuss the case & give me an order instead i ask for it.
  8. most common cases: stroke-hg/ischemic, hepatic encephalopathy, renal failure-acute/chronic, persistent wheezy chest-chronic asthma/COPD, tense ascites, hematemasis.
  9. i'm sorry i didnt let you do the ABG because it need experienced hand and the pt is children.
    aww is't too sweet when the resident come back to you and apologize. no need to apologize dr.
  10. i want ABG, NGT & folley's catheter on this pt. and I only repeat my order once. now!
    n for that pt i want
    teeheee. i love you la doctor :P
  11. we did a lot of ECG, ABG, NGT, folley's cath, gastric wash & measuring BP. i really mean a lot! and some paracentesis & bed sore dressing.
  12. i hv good relationship with nurse.(at istikbal esp) and they like us. bosan2 tkde kerja g lepak2 suka sibuk2 dgn nurse. madam asma, madam nikmah, madam marwa, zainab, madam sakinah. malu bile nurse greet cium pipi. tp suka. lol.
  13. ER will be much interesting and give much more benefit if both; the resident & local HO treat us well. we gain a lot from them. thank you very much dr & colleague.
    dr iman & dr walid hepatobiliary. dr amr & dr heba geriatric. dr ibrahim & dr hana' GIT, dr marwa endocrine, dr sara & dr marwa renal. dr mohd abd aziz, dr ammar, dr sarah, dr muhammad.
    and the best: assistant professor - dr ahmad shaaban? i think; who monitor us almost everyday and make sure we gain benefit & did everything.
    lg terharu bila dtg pagi2 resident da greet tunggu kt dpn pintu ER; i'm with you today.
    (though some of them are not really friendly; both the resident & local HO , but sokay we skipped on that day.)
  14. i dont like local HO underestimate us. we're also like you guys (only we're new & lack of experienced?) but we also knew how to do most of the things, just with a little language problem. we both in the same learning phase, aren't we?
  15. i re-gain my ABG hand. yeay. yeay. conclusion: rapid gush of blood is not indicator of arterial blood. they also can be very slow; like drop by drop. esp in hypotensive pt. oh and i try to insert needle blindly today; based on anatomical region of radial a without feeling the pulse and got it!. yeay.
  16. us: dr, CCU shift is 12hours. its very long.
    dr M: life is tough. so?
  17. ER will be much better if they own their ABG machine. really.
  18. 1st day, no of us are 13. decrease to 10. decrease to 7. n this morning only 5. up to evening only 3 left. lol.
  19. met very enthusiastic junior friend of mine somehow made my day. 
  20. and in very last day, with renal dept. they treat us very well. happy ending in ER. :')

Friday, August 3, 2012


" u have passed 6 years of hard work and this should make u all proud of ur selves. 
but u should always remember that this only the first and the very early step in our career, as we should be long life learners !!
our career puts us all in a position of a very heavy responsibility and we should do our best to be good doctors.. "


huhhh. terasa shock. kelmarin hbs exam final. hari ni terus start pre-internship. and mcm ade beban bile dr ckp; you are no longer undergraduate. now u're a doctor. n 1st day terabur floating tukar dept; dpt masuk bukan dept pilihan. tp ok je skrg da dpt follow the flow. nk blk awl memang harapan saje, kena ikut office hour resident. mcm da terasa ade kena pikul tanggungjawab. pagi bgn pergi kerja weyh. da tkde da nk ckp bgn g sekolah lagi. haha. seronok jgk kot sbnrnya. rase stress memang ade, tp look to the bright side, prepare utk HO kt msia nanti yg lg stress. yg pasti nanti mesti rindu cara resident kt sini treat HO; ajar & terangkan dgn sgt baik mjawab semua soalan and every steps of procedure.

br minggu 1st intern, tk terurus da rase. blk penat2 da terus tunggu buka puasa, terawih memang tk larat nk pergi. bilik pun da bersepah balik mls nk kemas. tp untung nasib baik blk2 kt rumah setiap hr da ade org siapkn utk berbuka. and kejut sediakn sahur siap. kalau tk, memang tk la. terharu tau. ;')
nk ckp ramadhan memang ntah ke mana. skrg terpk tau. tgk resident lg la memang tk nmpk derg ade masa utk betul2 meraikn ramadhan. sibuk handle pt je setiap masa. terbyg kte nanti mcm mana.

tahun ni da la last ramadhan kt mesir. sbb pre-intern ni da jd distract utk celebrate ramadhan.
nk kena betulkn balik priority buat masa skrg. 1. ramadhan. 2. intership.
ramadhan last da ni kt mesir. kt msia nanti lagi la tkde nk sambut ramadhan sgt.
hopefully dpt manfaatkn masa yg ada sebaiknya.