Friday, December 30, 2011

fragile

tk suka bile rasa serba tk kena. mcm ade sumthing wrong, tp tk tahu ape. rase iritasi pd yg tk sepatutnya. tk salah pun benda tu. tp rase cm pfftttt. blames the hormone.

cth mcm td, ade workshop endoscopy kt GI dept. menarik. sbb smlm br blajar theory n instrument utk ERCP. hari ni tgk application pada pt. lg nampak la kn ape yg kte da blaja kt theory. tk masuk OT, cuma tgk through live screen kt lect hall. n part yg tak bestnya ble dr yg terangkn dlm bahasa arab. sbb gabung dgn local student sekali. rase mcm. oh come on! helloo Dr, ade malaysian kt sini. benda yg menarik jd kurang menarik sbb paham separuh saje. kate Dr, 6th year da kn?. Zzzz. rase emo sampai rase nk nangis. bende simple pun. kalau la tiba2 ade org nmpk pastu tanya knp nangis? sbb dr terangkn dlm bahasa arab. mcm silly reason kn. pernah sekali tcampak air mata sbb arab potong que masa beratur kt bank.  Zzzz. tk patut. arab la ni. suka buat org nk emo lebih2. hurmm nk blame siapa lg?

nak ada hati yg luas & selapang langit birukena kuat. tk boleh nk emo lebih2. sentiasa berlapang dada. hadapi dgn senyuman. tk mudah berkecil hati. tabah. tk boleh nk mengada2, ikutkn emosi saje. 


ni da nk hbs belajar, hidup kt luar sana lg mencabar. lg berhadapan dgn mcm2 org. tk pasti la da ready kt tk. mcm dah. tp kdng2 rase sgt tk matang. mcm budak2 lg.

tk sabar nk minggu dpn. back to hectic life as medical student. ni minggu 1st sem br, pause skjp dr sebarang activity luar masa kelas. bertenang, settle down, kemaskn apa yg patut. minggu dpn start busy blk. final sem. tkde sem dpn lg da. 13weeks in internal med. yosh! sem br tahun br semangat br. resolution 2012 hari tu terpk da. la ni da tk igt. ape pun, mengharap utk yg lebih baik dr sebelumnya.


pie custard strawberry mcD sedap!

Saturday, December 24, 2011

NURLIYANA AIN




HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY DEAR. 
thank you for being my bestfriend, always being there with never ending support. and all those special memories we had all through our friendship. 

may this friendship last forever.
  YOU.


love, hani.

Friday, December 23, 2011

post exam

fuhhh. alhmdulillah hbs da sem 11. erm exam tk tahu nk ckp ape. both paper susah. n kelmarin serious rase nk break da bc forensic & toxic. 3 FINAL exam within 4 DAYS is beyond the limit. mengarutla. gap sehari between paper family med & forensic tu yg plng mengarut. exam ni plng stress kot. ye la sbb bace forensic awl2 study leave dulu, ni ble nk revise blk mcm tk pernah bc pun. tk boleh nk selak2 je. memang tk cukup masa nk hbskn bace semua. pastu gelabah pastu cuak lebih2 jd serabut. toxic pun da tercampur aduk semua. haihh. tgk kt wallnote pun tk laju mcm exam2 before. google doc pun tk hbs jwb. i think semua org pun alami bende yg sama. tk cukup masa. blame family med sbb tukr jadual.  pffftt.

da hbs da. let bygones be bygones. da usaha sehabis daya, doa & tawakal sepenuh hati je tinggal. Allah will take care the rest. ya Allah, permudahkn la urusan kami tahun akhir kt sini. semoga semua lulus. aminnn..

so here come the post exam syndrome. i list many things to do for post exam. tgk la jln ke tak. mcm biasa plan mcm2, tp bile da lps exam tk rase nk buat ape2 pun. try to rebound sleep smlm pun tk la tido lame sgt. even smlm blk rumah lps exam memang rase sakit kpl sgt tk lalu nk buat ape2.

happy friday everyone. sehari cuti yg bermakna. esok start sem baru pula. yeahh FINAL SEMESTER in medical school. excited ke? hmmmm..

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

wishlist #1

1 day, i want to be a volunteer medical team in masjidil haram.

triggering factor. tigt pergi sebulan umrah sebulan ramadhan 2008.
rutin harian yg sama setiap hari cuma pergi blk masjid. tkde ape2 komitmen.
cuma beribadat setiap masa. tk kisah hal dunia. alhmdulillah puasa, solat jemaah setiap waktu kt masjid, solat sunat rawatib, khatam quran beberapa kali n for the 1st time hbs dgn bace maksud sekali. menghadap kaabah setiap hari. masyaAllah.
terasa dkt dgn Tuhan. terasa nikmat yg tk tergambar rasanya. seronok sgt.

i really missed those moment.

i saw kt sane memang ade team medical standby kt certain part dlm masjid dbuka utk public kalau ade org nk consult n dptkn rawatan. kalau diizinkn Tuhan, ade rezeki ade peluang, i really want that. manfaatkn ape yg kte ade kt dunia utk mdptkn akhirat. since kte ade something yg boleh dmanfaatkn utk masyarakat, boleh gunakn utk mendektkn diri dgn Allah, dlm rumah Allah. besar ganjaran kn, dsamping mengharapkn rahmat n sakinah dr-Nya.

cuma kdg2 terpk layak tak utk jd tetamuNya lg? sbb tahun2 lps ade plan nk pergi lg, da memang nk pergi. tp ade kekangan tk dpt pergi. kte cuma merancang, Allah yg menentukn. Allah yg beri keizinan utk ape yg dkehendakiNya. mcm sedih jgk. memang tkde rezeki la kn nk pergi waktu tu.
semoga Allah murahkn rezeki, dpt jd tetamunya lagi iA satu hr nanti.

insyaAllah, biiznillah.

Monday, December 5, 2011

weekend

Jjwb 16: Apple pie
1. caramelized the apple. 1tablespoon of butter + 1/2cup of sugar + 3 apples: cut into small slices + 1teaspoon cinnamon powder

2. pastry: 2 cups floor + 3/4cup butter + 1teaspoon salt + 6-8tablespoons iced water. bake 200C  for 30min

JJwb 17: butter prawn
1. deep fry prawn with butter, leave aside. stir-fry onion + garlic + curry leaves + salt. mix together.

2. sprinkle with yolk-fried 

escaped!
life is too short not to indulge yourself

RED ALERT! final exam in 10days. =O
OSPE Family Medicine: 15/12 19/12
Written Family Medicine: 17/12 20/12
Written Forensic & Toxicology: 22/12
so here come the exam stress syndrome. do pray for me ppl.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

i have trust issues.

this is serious. :/